School has been crazy!! The last week and a half have
been super crazy and I was looking forward to a weekend of sleeping past 6 am.
But life likes to remind you not to make plans to be lazy.
So I’ll start with saying I have three classes, three math classes that is, but those three
take more time than any full time schedule I’ve had thus far. And, of course,
they all like to have tests or papers due on the same day. So like 5 days
before the tests everyone starts to ramp up their studying, which means study
group at 8 am. Do you know how hard it is to make a coherent proof at 8 am
after staying up until midnight doing homework? Well it’s pretty much like
trying to understand what a crying 2 year old is trying to say with a mouthful
of food and then committing it to memory to recall and put into grown up words
(ok so maybe you do). Maybe these classes aren't preparing me for teaching
teenagers math but rather to remember stuff on no sleep at all! LOL. I finished
my tests and papers on Wednesday and was looking forward to a sleep in day and
a lazy weekend. That did not happen.
Wednesday night I was asked if I could be at a job interview
the next morning at 8 am. Man, there went my sleep in day. Then later that day
during institute I realized that the week I spent studying I had forgotten to
read my scriptures and was way behind in the reading and had no clue what we
were talking about. Ok so I know the story but knowing the primary version and
the I read it last night and know what questions I have and what I understand what happened and why are very different. That’s
when I realized maybe my week would have been less stressful if I had made time
for the Lord. But I was still looking forward to the lazy weekend.
But of course I go to orchestra for the first time that
week (prepared to play a really hard piece) and we play some really easy pieces
and I find out that my weekend has now been given up to orchestra. We were
hosting high school honors orchestras and we would be playing with them. We had
rehearsal Friday night from 5-9 pm then Saturday we had classes and rehearsals
from 8 am to 7 pm. So long for my sleep-in
weekend. I was really mad about this because I am not actually in this class I just
show up when I can to help them out because they only have two freshmen cellists
and he wants someone in each section that knows the system and can help out. I
had a really bad attitude about this and after the first rehearsal Friday night
I was even more mad. The high school cellists and even the two freshmen
cellists were playing horribly. And I guess the college got the music like two
weeks ago (the high school students had had it for a month) and they had had
time to practice. I had played the pieces once in class on Thursday and the
guest conductor had the cellists play one part of the piece one by one and I was
the only one who played it correctly! This did not help my mood and my
motivation was very quickly deteriorating. I woke up the next morning and went
to the first rehearsal and I don't know what the high school students did
between 9 pm and 9 am but they played amazing! They blew me away! My motivation
to actually try was coming back. And at the end it turned out to be a really
good experience and I even ended up liking it.
A few reflections of the week remind me:
That I need to remember to do laundry more than when I have
absolutely nothing left to wear.
That I absolutely need to make time for scripture
study.
That I need to have a better attitude about things.
And that even though it may look like the worst thing on
earth right now, it may turn out to be really good. (Even if you miss the free
dinner and the relief society broadcast.)
So there is how I realized that sometimes I need to have
a better attitude even if it seems impossible for it to end well.
